Wednesday, July 23, 2008

I want a million of this!


I went into Davis' room last night to check on him before I went to bed and this is what I saw. Called Milon and grabbed the camera! Ahh, there is nothing sweeter than the sight of a sleeping child....especially when he has my husbands favorite Giants hat on!
I walk by her room all smothered in pink and wished I had another one to tuck in! I leave a nightlight on in her room b/c I just can't bear to walk past a pitch black room. For some reason the nightlight represents hope!

I don't think I have mentioned this before but we would love to have a bunch of kids. Milon says he wants a baseball team. I am not sure if that will happen due to the 2 F's....finances and fertility. If one of these weren't a factor I would love to have...maybe 4?? We are going to try to have 3 somehow or another....

I have already been "looking" into the next adpotion. Country pickins are slim and getting slimmer every day as countries close to adoption. Milon wants to adopt from Nepal so he can see Mt. Everst :> That would be really cool! I would love to go to Vietnam so maybe by the time we are ready to do it again they will be open!

We will focus on just trying to complete this adoption for now!

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Babyproofing the pond

Milon is spending today putting a wire fence around our coy pond. I have been fearful of this pond since we moved in and we are finally (1 yr later) doing something about it. Davis loves to play outside and I generally will do some internet surfing while he's outside since his swingset and trampoline are in my line of sight. The pond is insight also but I am too paranoid about him falling in to even take a chance. (I have really been getting into blog stalking these days:>)





Davis is taking swim lessons everyday for 2 weeks. It's a commitment and I am hoping he at least learns to float. We've been going for 1 week now and he's a lot more comfortable in the water, but hasn't managed to get his head wet yet. I think he spends more time on the toilet than he does in the water! For some reason we make endless trips to pee....the water must be really cold.


Here is a picture of Milon and Davis swimming at a friends pool.











On the adoption front, all of our paperwork is finished, notarized and apostilled. I even have our visa pictures and crisp money which I thought was going to be hard to get and turned out to be easy! I love Pam at our bank! Now, we are just waiting and waiting and waiting.


We have decided to make 2 trips. We will go on the 1st trip for our 2 week bonding period and then come home for 6 weeks. Then return for the remainder of the time. Maybe around 5-6 weeks?? The decision was easy b/c Kazakhstan just implemented a rule that we have to stay during the appeal period after court which is 2 weeks. At that time we get custody of her. There is no way I could then send her back to the orphanage when she could be with us! My mom has offered to go since Milon cannot take that much time off of work. I am glad to have the company and the help entertaining Davis. I am also excited for her to see where her grandaughter was born.


This adoption is making me concour all of my fears. I HATE to fly....and I really hate to fly with a 3 yr old. I am a total nervous wreck on a plane. I also HATE being away from home. I have taken 1 trip where I didn't want to come home and that was to Bermuda. I could live their forever! No matter where we go I want to return home the second we get there. To stay in a country that long will kill me but it would do the same to leave her. And then there is the biggest fear of all.. the whole picking out your child, the possible medical conditions, etc part of the adoption process that I am deathly afraid of.


Hmmmm....maybe I have just diagnosed myself as having an anxiety problem...hence the not sleeping???

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Just Passing Time

I have come to the conclusion that I need to keep really busy or this wait will make me crazy. So as any woman would do when she is bored I have decided to clean...I mean really clean. I called ZeroRez in to clean the carpets, tile, and air ducts. No, I am not hiring people to clean but this has given me the motivation I need. The carpets look brand new and I realized I have white grout instead of brown!!

I have had terrible insomnia since we moved in this house 1 yr ago. I swear it is something in the house and don't tell many people that to avoid seeming crazy! I take something EVERY night to sleep and my drugs of choice are Tylenol PM, Advil PM, Benadryl, or Sominex. I just finished a 7 day trial of Ambien which didn't work any better. I have trouble falling asleep and staying asleep! I am having the airducts cleaned to see if that will help...wishful thinking but I am willing to try anything!

I am trying to get in shape during this dreadful wait as well. I don't mean lose weight, but get more energy. I started yesterday by riding bikes to the park with Davis on the back. This morning I ran 3 miles and felt like I was going to die. I am the worst runner ever but am hoping it gets easier.

No, news on the adoption front other than the fact I learned I should have been collecting brand new crisp dollars from the bank along time ago. Apparently, banks are only issued new money ever so often so I might have a harder time getting this since I am late starting.

I have gotten the rest of the documents done that are needed for travel. It includes more medicals, more fingerprints, police clearance, tax returns, employer statements, etc.

Milon is concerned about his travelling b/c he will need to be in the country when we get the LOI in order to send his passport away to get our visas. I guess he will have to stop travelling maybe in August (oh darn).